Self Care...ouvh.
19/5/2024
I got 3.55 out of 4 this and I think I could've pulled a higher score if it wasn't for C++ being extremely outdated. whilst that, I've also been doing more self-care routines which involved doing scan rays and seeking professional doctors. There has been many things that turned out I'm suffering through, I finally got an answer to why I cant bend down and why my body feels painful and weak 24/7. drum rolls please.....S-CURVE SCOLIOSIS! yep. I have now specific excercise push ups every week and taking specific swimming lessons and even how to stand up properly without destroying my spinal discs which man thats as fun as it sounds like. another thing that came quite a shock to me is that I've been officially diagnosed with anxiety AND depression! it's a shocker to me because I'm a happy go lucky type of person who tries to be optimistic and sympathetic to people. my friend told me that I might have been masking it for years and I didn't even realize it. I still don't know if I'm masking it right now or not but atleast the post awareness is enough to make me cautious about why I get easily stressed out and why I suddenly dissacosiate and burst out talking about the people who have done me harm to my friends randomly at 2AM and then waking up like nothing happened. I don't think I'll make it past the 40s LOL!
